what will happen...

I married at a very young age.

and i don't know whether it's regrettable or not.

for me, i don't see any harm being someone's wife at this age. but the young heart that urged me to find someone else, is always there. i can't say that i'm not the loyal type. if i'm not, then why do i stand beside Stax for more than a year and go through hardship together in and out, thick and thin. being in this situation is not that simple. some couples think that it's easy to have a married life, which you find some one that can take care of you till the day you grow old. but when you got married, then you'll face so many unexpected, plus unusual, things that may happen to you. trust me, being someone's wife or husband is not that simple.

for me, i've seen and heard worse cases through out my teenage life. for instance, my parents and my friends parents. the whole group came out from a broken family and broken strings can never be mend easily. in fact, it can never be mend at all.

at this young age, those cases can bring much fear as i asked myself; "Will i be like them?" "How's my future?" "Will my husband leave me for someone else?" and so on...

I can see my future is at risk. it's on the rocks and it can tumble down anytime it wants... it's not that i don't believe my partner can take care of my welfare and my feelings.

i'm just afraid that i'm the one that can't take care of his welfare and feelings.

mostly i said to myself, these feeling came through me because of the difference between me and Stax. we have different views in life. and i'm very afraid that the love will disappear forever...

however, i'm trying my best to make a choice that can turn things right again.

to the couples out there, make a responsible choice which you won't regret choosing it.

Marsilla